Herniated Disc

I’ve been in pain for about a month now. Feels like a lifetime to me, and starting to forget what it feels like to not have pain.  Can I function and go about my day? Yes. But the pain is always there in varying degrees and it has been eye opening

It’s a sucky feeling not really knowing what’s going on with your body. We are treating something that we assume is happening based off my symptoms. If things don’t start to improve then we go to the next step. It’s very difficult for me to accept this being a nurse I want immediate answers and results

Lots of thoughts have gone through my head over the weeks and number 1 is that I’ll never take my body for granted again. We don’t know exactly how this happened and my physical therapist said it may not have had anything to do with the gym. I’ve never done crazy heavy lower body anyway because I’ve had a hernia. I do have a lot of bad “everyday” home body mechanics habits that I’ve done for awhile that may have caused it. She said my gym body mechanics are probably better than what I’ve been doing at home. Little tasks you don’t think about can really destroy your back/spine over time

Number 2 is that I’ll never underestimate when someone tells me they are in pain. Being a nurse I see people with chronic pain and it was always one of those things like “oh I’m so sorry that’s terrible”. Now I completely understand how pain affects you mentally. I have very little desire and ability to do many minor activities and the depression that comes with that is debilitating and spiraling

I want a quick fix. I should know better. Just like with fat loss, this isn’t possible. Time, consistency, and patience. Still doesn’t mean it isn’t still hard. But I’ll do anything to feel better. So I’m here for it, through the tears and frustration. I do believe there is a lesson and greater gift waiting. Thank you for listening!! ❤️SC